19th May 2010

I haven't written for ages... Been soooo busy! I promise! Keep meaning to write but by the end of the night I am so pooped I cannot even bare to think about it. Let me try and keep things as brief as I can as to what has been happening...

I got a job! Only starting on the 1st of June but working for Madam Zingara's circus restaurant, started training today, excited about the new experience and hope things will work out well! I know that it will definitely be fun and I am going to meet some more amazing people, as I already have done so far in Cape Town!

My little company 'Afrodizzyacts' has been going swell too, have had several jobs, fire dancing, fire breathing for a 21st in Stellenbosch, stilts at Virgin Active in Wembley Square, human table at POSH house in Fresnaye (amazing!) Photography job for 'Sitting Pretty' clothes shop at 210 on Long Street, painting, painting and more painting... I am super proud of myself and know that I would never be able to do this in London. I would still probably be a carer, feeling slightly useless, doing performance and painting stuff on the side. At least Cape Town I have been doing it all on my own! I am hoping to find some new young cuties to join my troop so that I can train them up to do all my tricks just incase I am working, and Marty needs a side kick!

I am still in the process of doing the ginormous painting for my Joburg friends, it is just so huge that I can only do it on days that no one is home. I hope they continue to be patient and I hope it turns out marvellously in the end! I also hope I don't get sick of it because it is taking so long! (Fingers crossed!)

Marty had measles last week, well the doc diagnosed him with measles but then wasn't 100% certain, he almost certainly looked and felt like he did though and we all ended up having MMR jabs as I was paranoid! (My wonderful Grandad is coming to visit tomorrow.) He was mean't to come last weekend but we had to postpone as I didn't want him to get sick, but it has all worked out pretty well I think! Marty is better and the weather is better, so I hope we shall have a fun time. Some fish & chips, sight seeing and perhaps a few museums... Think that sounds just along my Grandpop's lines... He is a wonderful old chap and I love him so very much, only wish I had met my Granny. Perhaps my two grannies hang out in heaven and watch us from up there, probably shaking their heads sometimes!

I was very lucky to recieve the most awesome letter ever from my not so telephone chatty dad! I did have to ask him to write me one, but that is okay, because it was the best! I cried nearly the whole way through! I wonder whether I will ever get to live in the same country as my family one day? Wouldn't that be nice? Going on 11 years that I have been apart. I think that is quite ridiculous if you ask me!

Lisa our english friend, who has been living with us the last 5 months or so, is leaving on Saturday. We have had many ups and downs, but a lot of good times, and I think Marty and I will miss her, and it will be sad to say goodbye. Hopefully she will take this experience and grow from it and do something great with her life. Now crazy Zugati will be moving in, and I shall be the mother of the house, no doubt! Ha ha!!! He is 43 and I am his mother!!! At least Marty will be happy having a dude around for a while, I think he goes nuts when there are too many chicks about the house!

Made sadza & stew for dinner tonight! Yummy! Although very fatty I think! Started a 28 day eating plan a while ago and lasted a week, think I just gotta get this big butt down to the gym sometime, because trying to eat less just does not work! I think that when I am older I am going to be a big fat mama! I do warn Marty about this all the time, but he seems content, crazy man! For some reason he just loves me! Who ever knows why sometimes!

Had a panic attack last night, haven't had one for years, it wasn't very nice. Not sure why?! Think I just think about things too much sometimes and then my head feels like it is going to pop. Sometimes I think when you think about some things too deeply you could actually go mental, and then I think I will end up in a mental home and that will be that! See, even now I am thinking about it all too much! STOP!

Alright, think that is it for now. Hope to see some comments, give this crazy bird some advice about her crazy head! Have attached pics of the photo shoot I did, let me know what you think?! Wierd being the photographer these days, but think the modelling days are out of the window now... Turning 29 in a few weeks, and also some 10kgs heavier! Dammit! The joys of contentment! xx Good night all! xx